"A pair of star-cross'd lovers"

don't you wish it happened like it does in the majestic stories of my past heroes?

for the feeling stays,
the urge lingers on,
it only grows with time.

you:
every time i see you, i fall for you all over.
i know  i need to fight it, because i know youdon't feel the same.
but it's just crazy.
i don't know why, but i miss you.
others may not know the depth of your thoughts, but i do.
you AMAZE ME!
you're beautiful in every aspect, weather you believe it or not.
there's so much to say, yet not enough words in my vocabulary.

then there's you:
you know the things i could say, you hear it so much.
it hurts to listen to you talk about him,
it makes me feel like nothing.
can i not compare? for you say i can.
i still don't believe you.
because all i see is stuff about him,
all i hear is stuff about him.
i don't mean to sound selfish, but where's the comments about me?
for once i just want to feel like the things you say are truth.

it seems like my luck.
you say one thing to me, and other things to everyone else.
my luck that the girls i like or supposedly like me either,
A) don't like me
or
B) have a boyfriend and lie about it

and ofcourse to ask you to break up with him is too much.


i drew.
it was amazing.
but i just couldn't stand looking at it.

please give this to me.
i've begun to feel just so empty,
and the thins i fill the space with just never hold up.

i've gotta stop complaining and i have to stop throwing out excuses.

i'm falling for you. pretty hard.

what else would you expect me to say?
i'm mad for you.
and i'm probably slowly going insane.



I GOT A CAR!
omg i love it, sooooo much.
it's beautiful!

grades are iffy,
and idk what else i could say about school.

my thoughts have been going crazy lately.
i have all these things i wanna talk about,
but i never know how to word them.
you kinda brought the best out of me in that way..
            remember that conversation we had?
            i still feel like it wasn't long enough.

i don't wanna stop talking,
so i'll leave off with this.

my sleep has been improving,
and i think it's bacause a few things:

your friendship,
the rekindling of ours,
your love,
meeting you.

this weekend was amazing.
hopefully my life continues this way.
then it'll start going the way i wish.